Its the Hormones

It started when I became pregnant. Super emotional ko. Well dati na ako emotional but it seems like its heightened. So imagine emotional na nga ako dati nadagdagan pa nung nabuntis ako. Dramarama mga bes!

May mabasa lang ako sa facebook or mapanood sa TV na nakaka-touch tutulo na lang bigla ang luha ko. Parang tanga lang haha!

I remember when I was still on my first trimester. Napakaselan ko maglihi at super throw up talaga ako the whole day na halos bumaba ng 7 lbs yung weight ko. Mind you it was super traumatic for me na halos wala na ako maisuka pero sige pa rin. Yung feeling na suko na ko ayoko na talaga. Pero syempre wala rin naman ako magagawa kundi kayanin para na rin sa baby ko.

Pili lang yung mga nata-take kong kainin na ulam. Dahil hindi ko talaga kaya yung amoy nila minsan. One time naubusan ako ng ulam. It was ginisang ampalaya with egg. Hindi naman ako kumakain ng ampalaya yung egg lang ang kinakain ko talaga. Pero gutom na gutom na ko noon. Palaging gutom ang buntis.

When our kasambahay told me na wala ng ulam, nasabi ko lang "ha bakit nio ko inubusan?". Then bigla na lang tumulo luha ko. As in hindi ko mapigilan, umiyak ako na parang bata. To the rescue naman agad si mother at nagpaluto ng same na ulam. Di nya alam na naubos ung ulam. Wala rin yung asawa ko nun, nasa work.

Then later on nung kumalma na ko, tinatawanan na ako ni mother. Nakakahiya tuloy haha!

Yung asawa ko dati ng masungit. Pag nagsusungit yun hindi ko lang papansinin tapos mamaya ok na. Nung mabuntis ako naiiyak ako kapag sinusungitan nya ako. Oh kaya kapag hindi nya nabibili yung gusto ko umiiyak talaga ako. Kahit ayokong umiyak kasi napakababaw ng dahilan. Pero hindi ko talaga sya kayang pigilan.

Nakakainis na nakakatawa yung ganitong pakiramdam. Im currrently on my third trimester but Im still so emotional.

what is happening?

Sooo many things happened! After that last update of mine about my wedding suppliers, I've already got married, Christmas had passed, it's a new year, Im 31, been to honeymoon and etc etc.

Dami ko gusto i-blog na mga pangyayari sa buhay ko and Im afraid makakalimutan ko na naman ang mga yun kapag hindi ko pa rin nai-type dito. Haaay sana sipagin na ko. 

In the meantime, eto nagpapaka-busy sa negosyo at sa pagiging asawa. Nanonood ng favorite series in between. Nagpapakahirap pumila sa mga government agencies para makapag-palit ng civil status at habang nakapila nag-iisip ng bagong business venture. Ayan lang naman ang mga pinagkaka-abalahan ko sa buhay sa mga panahong ito.

It's been almost 3 months since I got married and negative pa rin. Bakit kaya? Everytime na makakakita ako ng baby parang gusto kong tawagan asawa ko na nasa work at ayain umuwi and you know. And everytime na dumarating si monthly period, nalulungkot talaga ako. Sabi ni hubby wag daw magmadali darating din baby namen sa tamang panahon. Ewan ko ba, iniisip ko kasi pagka-kasal automatic baby na agad. It's not that Im pressured because of my age but because kahit noon pa mahilig na talaga ako sa baby and the time has come na for me to have my own.

I am very thankful kasi natupad yung gusto ko na makapag-asawa na by 30 years old. Ngayon naman sana magka-baby na ko this year but I know naman na darating din sya in God's time.

So ayan na lang muna, para lang masabi ko na nakapag-update din ng blog at malay mo sipagin ako dahil dito.

Sagada Day 3 and the Moment

On our 3rd and last day in Sagada, we woke up as early as 4:00am. He fetched the motorbike that we rented a day before and picked me up in our rented guesthouse.

We leave our place around 4:30am. We didnt know the road going to Kiltepan. Luckily, we saw other tourists that were also going to where we were headed, so we just followed them.

On the way, we had to stop because a van ahead of us was caught up on a road pothole. The road was so small that its good as one way. Good thing, we were riding a motorbike and we just passed trough the vehicles which passengers had no choice but to get down and hike up.

We arrive at the viewpoint by 5:00am. There were already few people settled to their spot of choice while waiting for the sun and the sea of clouds. 

It was cold and foggy.

We found our own spot and waited there. This was one of the things that makes me excited to go Sagada. Came 5:30, no sunrise yet. But we waited patiently, taking pictures in between. It was already 6:30 but we can't see the sun. Others gave up and leave. 

We waited still, until it was already 7:00am and we know that its time to leave. Natatakpan ng clouds ang sun at punong puno pa rin ng fog ang paligid.

So we decided to just take pictures of what we have and head back to the guesthouse after. The place was breath taking specially when clouds tend to disappear for a minute and we would see the rice terraces.

There were so many expectators that wanted to take pictures of the rice terraces. So he led me to a spot where there's only two of us.

When we finished taking pictures, niyaya ko na sya na umalis. But suddenly he got something on his pocket and showed me a small red box. Medyo bumilis ang heartbeat ko and I asked him "ano yan?". Then he replied in a question too and on bended knee, "will you marry me?".

I felt so overjoyed and my tears wanted to fall but I held it back and answered, "of course, yes!"

I hugged him blissfully then told him to put the ring on my finger. Unfortunately the ring was a bit small that it wont push trough my ring finger. Kahit anong gawin ko ayaw talagang pumasok...ng singsing. It turned out that he got the wrong measurement of my finger. 

You can say that it was an epic fail. The non-apperance of the sun and sea of clouds and the ring that dont fit but still, for me, it was the happiest day of my life. My heart exploded of happiness to the fact that one of my dreams came true. To be engaged and soon be married to the man that I love, the man I prayed for to come into my life. And Im forever be thankful to God and Mama Mary for giving him to me.

He contacted again the person that he bought the ring from and asked if there's something they can do to the ring to fit. Im still lucky that it can be resized.

And it perfectly fit. I so love this ring. It is exactly how I want it to be, my engagement ring.

This is the end of our Sagada trip but definitely the start of our journey to forever. Yes, may forever!

halo halo

Hindi kayo namamalik-mata. Update ko talaga itong binabasa nyo. After almost a year, who would have thought na mag-uupdate pa ako. Akala ko noon hindi ako magsasawa mag-blog pero dumarating din pala yung time na tatamarin ka na mag-blog dahil sa dami ng pinagkakaabalahan mo sa buhay. 

I just thought, maybe it's time to go back, bilang masyadong marami na kong kwento na dapat i-blog kung hindi, makakalimutan ko na siguro. May mga bagay kasi na mahirap makalimutan na kahit detail by detail kaya mo ikwento kahit senior citizen ka na. Pero may mga bagay din na maalala mo lang na "ay oo nga pala ginawa ko ito" or "napuntahan ko pala yan" pero hindi mo na maalala "bakit ko ginawa yan?", "pano nga ba ako nakapunta dyan?". Well, ganyan ako. Masyado akong makakalimutin, di ko rin alam kung bakit. Kaya rin siguro naisipan ko na gumawa ng online diary.

So heto na magku-kwento nako. 

PBO's First Screening for A Cause featuring the movie "Lucy" starring Scarlett Johansson, happened last August, 2015.

Gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa lahat ng sumuporta, sa lahat ng tumulong na maging possible ang fund raising na ito. Maraming frustration, depression at kung anu-ano pang may "sion" ang naganap but despite all of that, it was still worthit dahil naging successful naman. Nakakatuwa lang. The outreach will happen mid of this year. Alam ko po na medyo sobrang delayed na, pasensya na po, may mga pangyayari po na hindi umaayon sa pagkakataon at bukod dun masyado rin pong naging busy ako at si Senyor sa kanyang kanyang trabaho at hanapbuhay. Please bear with us. But we'll make sure na mapasaya naten this coming school year ang ating beneficiary, SPED students of Pasig. Again, thank you sa support, alam nio na kung sino sino kayo. Please continue to support PBO at aasahan namen kayo sa darating pa na mga fundraising at outreach.

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Nagtrenta na po ako this year. Wala lang bet ko lang sabihin. Wala na dapat celebration kasi hindi ako nakapagprepare pero sabi ni Mother kelangan daw may celebration kasi nga "trenta" na ko. May emphasis talaga yung trenta hmp! Kaya ayan biglang nagpa-book sa BSA Twin Towers sa Ortigas. Napa-luto din ng slight.

I invited my closest friends. Yung iba nakarating, yung iba hindi. Pero happy pa din.

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Im thankful to meet another one of my favorite blogger na si Tripster Guy. We had lunch, watched a movie, had coffee and kwentuhan together with Senyor and Glentot. He's warm and kind in person. Im hoping to see him again. Wala kaming picture. Medyo private person sya sa totoong buhay kaya nahiya na rin ako magpa-picture with him. But still it's nice to finally meet him.

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Meron na ulet akong pamangkin. He's a very adorable, fluffy baby boy named Vincent. I enjoyed playing with him so much. Nakaka-happy.

6 months na sya ngayon

Here with my eldest pamangkin, her cousin, Shanen na nasunog sa pag-swimming.

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My niece, Shanen finished kindergarten with honors. Top 1, Best Pupil, Best in English, Best in Science, Most Articulate, Most Independent. Nakaka-proud lang.

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Me and Jojie went to Sagada last month and something exciting and life changing (wow! life changing talaga ang term ko?) happened. Ang kwento ng trip ay sa susunod na post.

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Maraming pang ganap pero eto na lang muna for now. Byers!

My Birthday Wishlist 2014

Hello blogworld! Kumusta naman? Im back! Well I cant really say that Im back, depende pa kung magtutuloy tuloy ang sipag ko. Malapit na mag-end ang birthday month ko pero siguro aabot pa birthday wishlist ko. But before that let me take a recap on my birthday wishlist last year.

My birthday wishlist 2013

10. unique birthday cards - granted! given by my sweet PBOer friends
 9. to have a photo of me on a birthday suit - mukang matatagalan pa to ulet bago matupad lalo na ngaun sa kalagayan ng katawan ko
 8. sana may manlibre saken -  granted! by my gorgeous and generous friend Arvin
 7. new business oppurtunities - granted! had a bazaar last December with my bff Nahnah
 6. pug puppy - hindi pa naman mauubos ang mga pug sa mundo so keri lang
 5. flowers - walang nagbigay ng flowers nung exact birthday ko pero the following months until now may narerecieve akong flowers every now and then so i say granted to!
 4. DLSR - sabi ko bibili na ko nito eh pero parang nawala na naman interes ko
 3. all expense paid trip to Batanes - someone promised me this, obviously hindi pa sya natutupad until now but im still hoping
 2. God's gift - granted! greatest thing that happened to me last 2013
 1. success of the first PBO project - granted! obviously overwhelming ang success ng PBO at marami pang mga successful project ang sumunod at susunod

Six whishes ko ang natupad out of 10. Hindi na masama! Ngaun meron ulet akong wishes but hindi na lang ito pang-birthday kundi wishes ko na ng buong taon ng 2014.

My birthday wishlist 2014

1. maging successful at magkaroon ng good feedbacks ang 4 upcoming projects ng PBO at dumami pa ang members at supporters nito
2. pumayat na ulet ako
3. more travels
4. my relationship with my love will upgrade to the next level.
5. mag-grow ang business
6. good health for me and my loved ones
7. car

I guess that's all I could ever wish for this year. No further elaborations needed. Yun na yun!

I posted the photo above in fb on new year of 2013 with a caption "no resolution this time, motto na lang "stay hot and sexy"". Well obviously hindi ko napanindigan ang motto na yan dahil new year of 2014 eto na ko (photo below),

Oh diba ang layo na ng itsura after 1 year. So ngayon ang pinaka-wish ko talaga eh maibalik ko yung katawan ko dati. Yun na!

Happy New Year!

I miss blogging and blogger friends

OMG! It feels like a thousand years na since huli ako nag-post. I can say I miss blogging. I miss the bloggers. I miss the kulitan with you guys. But I think some things really change. Actually, all things change. Sabi nga ng isang quote na nabasa ko, "the only constant thing is change". Naging busy na rin siguro kayo katulad ko. Ahmmm actually noon naman kahit busy ako nakakapag-post pa rin ako. Ang sipag ko nga mag-post noon eh. Sipag like every other day ganyan. Pero now, once a month na lang minsan nga wala pa. Parang gusto ko na tuloy maniwala doon sa nabasa ko rin sa isang blog post na mas inspired mag-sulat or mag-blog ang single. Ay ewan! Basta miss ko kayo guys. Yung iba jan hindi narin nagpo-post, like sis Joanne, yeah sis I really miss reading your stories.

Hindi na rin ako sinisipag mag-basa ng post. Yung iba naman binabasa ko pero hindi ako sinipag mag-comment. Yung iba nagko-comment pa rin naman ako pag may time ganyan.

Siguro mas madalas na lang ako manood ng movie ngayon. I think kasalanan ni boyfriend kaya hindi na ko masyadong nakakapagblog at nakakapagbasa ng blog ngayon. I know what you're thinking pero hindi yun yun. Tinuruan nya kasi ako magdowload ng mga movies from net, yeah I know Im a loser i dont know how then. Masyado kasing complicated minsan ang mag-DL eh, ayoko pa naman ng complicated. So pag may gusto akong i-DL na movie pero complicated much ang process sa kanya ko pa rin pinapa-DL.

Meron pala akong problema ngayon. Nagloko na naman yung bookkeeper na ni-hire ko para mag-file at magbayad ng mga kelangang bayaran monthly sa BIR. Yes, na naman! Yung una hindi binabayad sa BIR yung sinisingil na pera samen at bigla na lang sya nawala. I know nothing about that stuff. I want to learn but its complicated and you see I really hate complicated things. Kaya nga siguro ginawan ng paraan ni Lord na hindi accounting ang naging course ko eh.

Ang nakakatawa ang hirap ng paraan para makapagbayad ng tax para lang walang maging problema ang negosyo pero napakadali lang mawala ng tax na binabayad naten. Nakakawalang gana magbayad ng tax kapag nalalaman mo kung saan lang napupunta.

Anyway, so ayun kelangan ko na namang maghanap ng bagong magaasikaso or worst I have to learn the process.

This is it for now, may panonoorin muna akong movie entitled "Inglorious Basterds". Another Quentin Tarantino, he really earned my admiration when I watched Django Unchained.

I really miss you all, mwah!

update update din pag may time

Hello hello hello! Kumusta naman kayo? Ako? Eto almost a month ng walang blog update. As if may nagaabang ng update ko. Ang tagal ko na ring hindi nakakabisita sa mga blog nyo tsk. Ewan ko ba  tinatamad busy busy-han na naman ang peg ko. Sa sobrang busy nakalimutan hindi ko pa rin nagagawa ang statement of account ng PBO for the last project, sorry naman. Eto na isusunod ko na dito. At talagang nauna pa ang blog update. Nagsunod sunod lang ang alis ko plus events and activities plus business and lovelife pa. Oh yes may lovelife na ang lola nyo ngaun.

Naalala nio ba si best man sa Maid of Honor post ko? Yes, korek, tama, palangak, walang duda sya yun! Eh hindi na nya daw kasi nakalimutan ang aking kagandahan mula ng makita nya ko sa wedding ng common friend namen. He courted me since then at ayun nung April 21 ibinigay ko na ang matamis kong OO.

Nung una hindi ko sya gusto. Although kinikilig ako sa mga effort na ginagawa nya. Pero syempre iba pa rin kapag may romantic feelings. I almost told him to stop na but still I give myself a chance. Hindi rin naman kasi dapat madaliin ang mga ganung bagay. Dumating din yung time na Im starting to fall na kaya ayun na nga. Kapag sinipag ako ipopost ko dito ang buong kwento. Syanga pala binabasa nya tong blog ko kaya hi my Love (kilig much!).

I thougt it was wrong timing kasi I have a friend who's currently hurting because her partner cheated on her. Medyo natakot ako at naisip ko pano kung mangyari din yun saken. Pano kung sobrang mahal ko na sya tapos biglang malalaman ko na may minamahal na syang iba? Ang dami kong naisip nun pero yung friend ko mismo nagsabi saken. Wag daw akong matakot kasi magkaibang tao naman sila at oras na para sumaya naman daw ako. Oha may ganong factor si friend.

Naisip ko rin naman kung palagi tayong matatakot magmahal eh wala talagang mangyayari. Nakita ko rin naman kung gano ka-sincere si best man. Sabi nga nila ang true love minsan lang dumating kaya kapag anjan na wag mo ng pakawalan, ikaw rin. At kung sakali man na magloko sya hindi ko kawalan. Magloloko pa ba sya eh neseken ne keye eng lehet charot!

Samantala sa ibang mga balita (segue segue din pag may time) natuloy na rin ang pizza making bonding namen nina Pao at Carlo. Andito ang kwento. Naaliw ako sa ginawa namen kahit mahirap pala mag-knead ng dough. In fairness nabusog kami ng bonga sa pizza at nagenjoy sa kwentuhan kahit medyo bitin. Salamat Pao and Carlo until next bonding time.

Ang dami ko pang gusto ikwento katulad nung Camsur vacation namen ni mudra at funfest ng suking grocery sa Enchanted Kingdom pero next time na lang tinatamad may gagawin pa kasi ako.

Nga pala may Feeding Program ang PBO sa Friday, May 10, 2013, 8am at TM Kalaw Taft. Kung hindi kayo busy sama kayo ah. For more details or questions and suggestions click nio lang ito Pinoy Bloggers Outreach or email me at pinkline_21@yahoo.com. Maraming salamat. Hope to see you there.

Na-miss ko kayo!

my birthday wishes came true

Funny how time flies really fast! My birthday month was over that's why I wanted to thank all of you who made my birthday very special through this post.

Nag-post ako ng wishlist noong birthday ko mismo. Out of my 10 wishlist meron namang tatlong natupad na as of posting time. First one was the success of the first PBO's project <= click to read the whole story.

Second was the unique card and messages.

thank you PBOers for this cute musical card with your messages

Thank you for this unique musical card. Galing ito sa mga blogger friends na nag-volunteer sa first project ng PBO. Im so touched! Muntik ako maiyak kung di lang ako masaya dahil sa outcome ng PBO malamang naluha na ko. At may kaakibat pang picture collage ni Archieviner. Hindi ako sigurado kung kaninong idea to hahaha!

Salamat din sa sobrang nakakatunaw sa puso na message from Archieviner and Cyron.

thanks Archieviner

thanks Cyron with feelings ;)

At sa mga gumawa ng picture greetings for me. Natuwa talaga ako!

thank you sis Maria of Super Wander Girl

Thank you JonDmur

thank you mama Joy

thank you Senyor Iskwater

thanks to my friend Arnold :)

thank you Gord

Salamat din sa mga gifts.

thank you Zai for this super cute bear :)

thanks sis Joanne..i love the color :)

thank you Pao.. so talented kid :)

Last but definitely not the least is my wish na sana may manlibre saken.

Thank you Archieviner for granting this wish. Finally we met when he arrived from New Caledonia. Kung gaano sya kaingay sa twitter, blog at facebook kabaliktaran in person. Hindi ako sanay na tahimik sya. Well ang masasabi ko lang he's mabait and generous. Sige na nga pogi na rin hehehe. A real friend.

And now let me give you a sneak peek on how we enjoyed the beautiful islands of Siargao.

best in tingala :P

ang Hari at ang Dyosa

after surfing at Cloud 9

Summer Models 2013

Watch out for more!

Im so overwhelmed with the greetings, messages, gifts and granted wishes from you my dears. My special day will never be the same without you. Thank you so much! ♥ ♥ ♥

Maid of Honor

January 19, 2013 was the wedding date of the two of my closest friends, Bobong and Nene. Magkakaibigan na kami since college. We were on a two different groups on our block section. Pero dumating yung time na nagmerge ang group namen and then poof it became coco crunch naging isang malaking barkada na kami. Actually hindi naman ganun kalaki. We were originally eight, nadagdagan na lang dahil sa mga bf or gf at ngaun asawa na nila. That leaves me the only single (not taken) on our barkada. Saklap diba? Oh well, anyway I believe and will still believe na makilala ko rin ang tamang lalakeng nakalaan para saken (punong puno ng pag-asa). Baka nga nakilala ko na sya hindi pa lang nagpaparamdam. Hoy paramdam ka na! Anong petsa na oh?!

Syempre, one of the special occasions ito for me kaya hindi pwedeng hindi ko isasama sa aking online diary. Always na lang kasi akong bridesmaid at first time ko mag- maid of honor.

The wedding ceremony took place in Sta. Clara de Montefalco Parish church, Pasig City.

Dumating ako sa Exchange Regency Hotel ng 10am. Ang aga ko diba knowing na 2pm pa ang kasal. Eh excited ako eh bakit ba?! Pero naman mga teh ako pa ang huling naayusan. Yung tipong naiihi na ko sa sobrang pagka-pressure dahil ako na lang ang hinihintay, ganyan. Buti na lang hindi kami na-late, saktong sakto lang at nakapag-pictorial pa before the march.

the groom with his parents

the bride with her super cool parents

Baket kaya nakakaiyak yung eksenang naglalakad yung bride sa aisle? Well, its for me to find out hehe.
They have a promise na kapag 10 years na sila mag-bf gf eh magpapakasal na sila. Kaya ayan, finally!

Gamit na gamit pala pagiging maid of honor ko dito dahil bukod sa pagpapapirma eh kami rin ni best man ang pinag-hawak ng mike habang nagpapalitan sila ng I do's.

At dahil biba ako eh pati sa mga ninong ako na rin ang nagpa-pirma na dapat pala yung best man na. Eh first time eh.

Habang nagpi-pictorial ang groom at bride, may moment din kami sa gilid.

the prettiest maid of honor on earth (ang kokontra panget!)

Instead of the usual na pagpasok ng entourage sa reception area, kailangan daw eh sumasayaw. Kaya ayun napasayaw ako ng slight lang nemen.

While in the middle of the program, may na-spot-tan akong nagi-stand out na kagwapuhan. Dahil supportive sa single love life ko si bff Hash kinuhanan nya ng picture, kaya lang nakatalikod. Hindi ko na lang din ipopost wala rin namang silbi. Basta nanlambot tuhod ko dahil taglay nya ang weakness ko, matangkad at singkit.

Officemate pala ni groom si Mr. MS (matangkad and singkit). Dahil supportive din ang friend kong groom ipinakilala nya saken si Mr. MS. Ehmeged! He's more goodlooking sa malapitan. We shook hands and he smiled so sweet. Tumalon puso ko! Gusto kong magtakip ng unan at umirit sa sobrang kilig. Single din sya kaya lang may pagka-suplado. Oh well, move on na! Ganyan ako kabilis magpalit ng feelings, from kilig to deadma chos!

More ganap sa program hanggang sa dumating sa throwing of bouquet. Hindi na sya yung traditional na literal na ihahagis. Idinaan ni bride sa game. Naghagis sya isa isa ng mga roses with stem. Kung sino ang may pinakamaikli ang stem na nasalo sya ang mapalad at ako yun bwahaha! Dahil dyosa ang nakakuha nag-unahan ang mga single boys sa pag-ubos ng wine at ang nanalo ay si best man!

Kung ano daw ang gagawin ni groom at bride gagawin din ng mga nakakuha ng bouquet at garter. Paalala: ang mga sumusunod na eksena ay bawal sa mga batang manonood. Patnubay ng magulang ay kailangan.

kiniss ni bride si groom sa forehead kaya kiss din ako kay lolo sa noo

malakas kiliti ko jan hihihi

hindi po yan lips to lips..effects lang ng camera :P

Over yang si best man, nakarami ng halik sa aken huh! Hindi ko po feel na feel ang mga eksena. Napilitan lang talaga ako dyan (defensive?).

Hindi pa nakuntento sa kiss, sinayawan pa ako habang papalapit saken para isuot ang garter.

nadidiri ako hindi ako natutuwa!

tuwang tuwa ako, diring diri si best man 

Buti na lang pareho kaming single kaya keri lang.

The bride and groom ended the program by thanking everyone for being part of their big event. Like what I've said sa wine tossing, I wish them happiness, stay in love unconditionally and have a baby agad agad.

Dahil mga adik kami sa picture, more more photo shoot bago umuwi.

That's all for now.


Thanks everyone for reading and commenting on my last post regarding the success of PBO's first project. To those who want to be a part of a fulfilling mission to share, please do like our fan page Pinoy Bloggers Outreach or follow @iHeartPBO on twitter for updates. Thank you!