Its the Hormones

It started when I became pregnant. Super emotional ko. Well dati na ako emotional but it seems like its heightened. So imagine emotional na nga ako dati nadagdagan pa nung nabuntis ako. Dramarama mga bes!

May mabasa lang ako sa facebook or mapanood sa TV na nakaka-touch tutulo na lang bigla ang luha ko. Parang tanga lang haha!

I remember when I was still on my first trimester. Napakaselan ko maglihi at super throw up talaga ako the whole day na halos bumaba ng 7 lbs yung weight ko. Mind you it was super traumatic for me na halos wala na ako maisuka pero sige pa rin. Yung feeling na suko na ko ayoko na talaga. Pero syempre wala rin naman ako magagawa kundi kayanin para na rin sa baby ko.

Pili lang yung mga nata-take kong kainin na ulam. Dahil hindi ko talaga kaya yung amoy nila minsan. One time naubusan ako ng ulam. It was ginisang ampalaya with egg. Hindi naman ako kumakain ng ampalaya yung egg lang ang kinakain ko talaga. Pero gutom na gutom na ko noon. Palaging gutom ang buntis.

When our kasambahay told me na wala ng ulam, nasabi ko lang "ha bakit nio ko inubusan?". Then bigla na lang tumulo luha ko. As in hindi ko mapigilan, umiyak ako na parang bata. To the rescue naman agad si mother at nagpaluto ng same na ulam. Di nya alam na naubos ung ulam. Wala rin yung asawa ko nun, nasa work.

Then later on nung kumalma na ko, tinatawanan na ako ni mother. Nakakahiya tuloy haha!

Yung asawa ko dati ng masungit. Pag nagsusungit yun hindi ko lang papansinin tapos mamaya ok na. Nung mabuntis ako naiiyak ako kapag sinusungitan nya ako. Oh kaya kapag hindi nya nabibili yung gusto ko umiiyak talaga ako. Kahit ayokong umiyak kasi napakababaw ng dahilan. Pero hindi ko talaga sya kayang pigilan.

Nakakainis na nakakatawa yung ganitong pakiramdam. Im currrently on my third trimester but Im still so emotional.

My Wedding Day

My head is spinning, maybe due to lack of sleep. I dont know if it was the excitement or still the stress of my wedding preparation.

It was 3am. My suppliers were calling. They were already in the hotel lobby. So I fetch them with my hair still wet.

Then my room was suddenly overcrowded. My family members, some of the entourage and suppliers.

After few minutes of walking back and forth, calling and taking some calls, I realized it's time to start my make up.

Pictorial started and some of my friends were already there.

It felt surreal when Im already wearing my wedding gown. It's a dream come true. I look just like the way how I pictured me on my wedding day. My heart is filled with bliss that Im finally getting married to the love of my life.

Thank God there's no traffic and we arrived at the church just in time. I'm so thankful to Vivian, my assistant that day, she never left my side and always assuring me that everything's fine and to just relax.

I heard my bridal march song (Minsan Lang Kita Iibigin on Violin) started playing. That's my cue and I started walking down the aisle.

Nervous at the first few steps. Im stepping at my gown and for some reason my shoes is kinda loose. But I remember what Vivian told me to do. Kick and step, kick and step. And that is just what I did. Thankfully, I did not trip.

I felt so emotional while walking, my tears wanted to fall so badly but then I saw my parents smiling at me and so I managed to held back my tears and smile. I saw my relatives and friends looking at me, taking pictures and smiling. Then finally Im almost on the altar and I saw my gorgeous groom looking at me with full of love, dreams and excitement as we start our future together as husband an wife.

Wedding Day: December 12, 2015
Church: Christ the King Parish, Greenmeadows, Quezon City